One of the follow ups

I got a letter from the High School I was bitching about. It said that in order to pay you 400 dollars, we still need your original contract(which says nothing right about my later modified service), and btw, because you only have one DIRECT CONTACT with the students(OMG, what did I do?), you do not need to go through fingerprint process. I can't wait to bring that piece of paper to shine that mean old lady's face, "Guess what? Someone broke your sacred LAW, and it's not me. It is said by your own orginazation!" Anyways, Jared and I found it always amusing to read the contracts with facilities in this area. We found out that I can say and do pretty much whatever I want because my work is based on my own "professional opinion". And there is also a phrase making sure that no matter what the school does to you, you cannot legally sue them. Everything is out of order and everything is out of control. People try to sneak and push things without telling their boss, and it's just not gonna work. At the end, the boss still needs to agree on things. Because of the sneaking/pushing behavior, it doesn't always end well. I learned something, threatening works a lot better than asking. And when I have nothing to lose, what will I not do in order to get what I want? So, the drama with High School shall stop. Now, still waiting for the Univirsity.

Stress is like a non-stop period

That is what I've been feeling since September 2011. I didn't follow up to an offer in Tenessee because of the offer in the university in New York area. Because of the facility or because of human dis-organization, my position had faced serious difficulty in order to happen legally. People kept telling me they found a way and made me promise them that I wouldn't do anything else, so, when the position followed through, I could get back to work right away. At first, they told me it would be only a few days, weeks of wait. It turned into a bizarre situation and I couldn't commit to anything because I was hoping to jump into the position as soon as the problems were solved. It finally kind of happened by the beginning of this semester. The brilliant minds who worked this out seemed to plan on sneak me in without notifying any authority. After I sent in the invoice as the completion of a month of work, I soon got a note from the campus lawyer saying that I must provide the evidence or the exemption of workers comp coverage. After I managed to do that, there was the need of disability... So, after a brief day of work in Sep 2011, plus the two past months of work in the university, I received nothing as my compensation. After describing my situation of not being paid at all for all this time thus I don't have money to go to work. Some office people interepreted this as "I quit"!? And according to the office peops, HR might give me more hard time about my current employment. The never ending documentation seemed to happen because the people tried to sneak me in. It was bad that I couldn't work. And now, because of this action, I worked for free. The other one was a high school production of musical. They got me by the end of January with plenty of hours without plenty of money. After about two weeks of work, their school office told us that whatever agreement I had with the music teachers was not valid. They need a board meeting to hire me and I need to sign an official contract with the administration office. At that moment, the university gig cleared up and I immediately told the high school teachers that they had to find someone else or they had to deal with more of my absense. We finally came to the agreement of me making some music recording for their rehearsals. Other than that, I played one of the semi dress rehearsal from 1 to 10pm, and one promoting event they had. For the entire time, I was only cooperative to the school teachers because I knew they were desperate and I always love to help if I can. After all my service, I asked the school teachers how to get my payment. The male teacher told me that the office has all my document for the new agreement ready, all I had to do is to get into the office and sign the new document. I walked into the office, but none of the administrative people knew anything about my new agreement. The lady from the principle's office kept telling me that it was all because of the lack of my first paperwork and contact to them. No matter how many times I told her that the music teachers and I had to terminate the first agreement because of my new situation happening at that time. And nobody had a sure answer of what they wanted me to do for quite a while. That was why I couldn't tell them anything neither give them any document. When I told her that after I write an email to inform the two teachers to be in contact with her asap and I will be on my way, she said, "this is a confidential area. I can't leave you alone unattended". Oh Dear, I walked in that room without getting stopped from anyone. When I was in that room, nobody else was in. All of a sudden, this is confidential? Chill out! My mind is full of crap all the time and I become mean to nice people. The Lord of Flies came to my mind and I couldn't sleep well. There was this plot in my mind going over and over again. All I did was to make people's life easier by being a good musician. Why would they keep making my life more and more difficult. It also seems to be a fashion in the local school district to make hiring a musician extremely complicated. The stress of not getting paid, having to rely on my boyfriend for the whole time, I feel that I may end up doing something horrible to people in order to fulfill my own justice. I don't know for how long I can hold myself together. The situation of a new VISA application definitely doesn't help ease things out. I miss Manhattan, and I miss being surrounded by majority of intellectuals.